Whenever you're called on to make up your mind.
And you're hampered by uncertainty -
The best way to solve the dilemma, you'll find
Is simply by flipping a coin.
No, not so that chance shall decide the answer -
But because while you're passively standing there moping,
And the moment the coin is up the air
You suddenly will know...
What you're hoping.

06.05.04
HAVEN

I've had a thought --

I believe the one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept - because through it all, love will grow stronger, bonds will become thicker, and the future will become more clear.

Love wasn't meant to be easy, otherwise we wouldn't end up with the right person - we would instead end up with the first one who comes along. By suffering, we single out the wrong ones and realize who we are meant to be with.

Thusly I resign myself to my fate.
Him or no one.

I want to be with you for the rest of my life
Because I don't want to ever be without you
Without you I have nothing
Because everything that means anything to me
I find in you.........

02.12.05
Haven

And he came to me
On this storm tossed night
Through the rain to my front door
Soaked through and through
Water dripping down to the welcome mat
His tears hidden in the trails of rain
His hand extending forth
The air heavy with the sound of his sorrow
And the whisper of love
All I could do was stare for a moment
Disbelief my one true enemy
I reached out a hand
My own tears began to fall
Everything I've ever wanted
Stood now at my door
"I'm sorry" his words tossed in the wind
"I was wrong when I left you"
My heart began to mend
"You were always with me" my reply
I stepped forth to embrace him
And found only air
For it was just a vision
And my heart is empty still...............

Will I be forever reaching.....
Only to come up empty still.....

01.15.05
Haven

Lately I've been trapped in the what if/what could be.
Drowning in old bittersweet memories.
Haunted by dreams and visions of him.
Wanting some to go away and some to happen again.
Sadly, want is like a penny rusting at the bottom of a wishing well
Not everything we need comes easily or at all
But I will not give up hope
I cannot
So I hold fast to the fragments of my heart
And send up a prayer for my one wish to come true
So that I may finally lay to rest this emptiness inside...

07.08.04
Haven